Dec.22.2021
It’s been a bad day lately
A lonely place
I can’t endure
Being so far away
Always makes things worse
Oh everything I do
And everything I say
And everything I feel
I feel for you today
It’s been a bad day baby
Oh I’m swallowed in the murk
Being so far away always hurts
It’s been a bad day lately
Oh I’m not a bird
Flying home would save me
Home
One day
I’ll return
Here I am
There it is
At the edge
Of as bad as it gets
I’m a boxer
Blind when I swing
I sink
To my knees
I cling
And I bleed
But cry don’t you dare
When I die in the ring
Life isn’t fair
Love is the king
Love is the king
Love is the king
Of the beautiful trees
How everyone sings
And tanks in the street
Like cats
Watching with skill
Green and grey
Violent and still
Spinning above
Stones in slings
When push comes to shove
Love is the king
Love is the king
Love is the king
Love is the king
Love is the king
Love is the king
At the last last call
When it’s time for us all
To say goodbye
I know I’m gonna cry
Know I'm gonna cry
Because all in all
I’m just having a ball
Being alive
And I don’t want to die
I don’t wanna die
At the end of the end
Of this beautiful dream we’re in
I’ll wake up again
A robin or a wren
And then I’ll sit
Outside your window
I’ll sing a song you’ll recognize
And you won’t know why
You won’t know why
And then a teardrop will fall
Into the corner of the smile
On your face
And I’ll be alive
I’ll be alive
I’ll be alive
I’ll be alive
I’ll be alive
I’ll be alive
I don’t think I can take another day
Oh I don’t know how I could ever say
I’m OK being so far away
Oh I don’t think that I can take another day
When Gwendolyn, when she starts to speak
To a county police with a plastic cup between her teeth
The sun beating down like a big trombone
That’s right when I start missing home
She holds my hand between her knees
It’s like a dream, I never know what it means
I only know I’m feeling alone
That’s right when I start missing home
Honestly Gwen I’m not ashamed to say
Between you and me I’m relieved they put you away
Sun coming up like a piece of toast
That’s right when I started heading home
That’s right when I started heading home
Well that’s right when I started heading home
Half asleep
All your dreams
Come alive
You’re all I need
Come to me
Close your eyes
There’s no other
There’s no one
No one
But you
Half of me
Still believes
We never die
Won’t you lay
Next to me
Close your eyes
There’s no other
There’s no one
No one
But you
When you need me
I’ll be there
When you need me
I’ll be there
When you need me
I’ll be there
When you need me
I’ll be there
When you need me
I’ll be there
When you need me
I’ll be there
I’ll be there
I’ll be there
When you need me
There’s no other
There’s no one
But you
Don’t forget
Don’t forget you’ve got a key
Yeah a cosmic key
Oh I love you so much
Don’t forget
We’re all blowing in
The interstellar wind
I’m your little galaxy
Don’t forget
Don’t forget sometimes
We all
We all think about dying
Don’t let it kill you
Don’t forget
I won’t forget the long drive
We arrived in time to say goodbye
And the way my roses shook
I won’t overlook
The willows bending by the graves
The very next day in the shade
Sweating in a new suit
I don’t regret
I don’t regret sometimes
We all
We all think about dying
Don’t let it kill you
Don’t forget
Don’t forget to brush your teeth
Or you’ll have a funny smile
You don’t have to smile at me
Don’t forget
Don’t forget sometimes
We all
We all think about dying
Don’t let it kill you
Don’t forget
Don’t forget sometimes
We all
We all think about dying
Oh
Far away
From the fireworks display
Quiet and bright
I know what it’s like x 3
To not feel love
When a sunny day
Starts to rain
Keep me in mind
I know what it’s like x 3
Even when I’m wide awake
I keep turning back one page
I can’t find the plot
Something else is taking shape
I know what it’s like
To keep losing your place
My shadow stays
Even when I’m miles away
Waiting outside
I know what it’s like x 3
To not feel pain
When the lights are dim
In my window I have a twin
I’m always looking out
And he’s always looking in
I know what it’s like
Starting over again
I know what it’s like x 2
To not feel love
Far away
From the fireworks display
Quiet and bright
I know what it’s like x 3
To not feel love
Even when it’s years away
I still think it’s yesterday
I can’t find the plot
Something else is taking shape
I know it’s a lie
When you say it’s ok
I know what it’s like x 9
To not feel love
I know what it’s like
To not feel love
Save it for me
When the world falls apart
I can say with certainty
There’s a reason
A light left on in an empty room
Is how a love can be
A rainbow word in a mouth of clouds
Darkened days
Who needs you now?
A rainbow word in a mouth of clouds
Darkened days
Who needs me now?
Save it for me
When the world falls apart
I can say with certainty
There’s a reason
There’s a pie left out that you can’t consume
So sweet you cannot eat
There’s a reason
No one will call today
The people you lean on
Don’t always know
What to say
Save it for me
When the world falls apart
I can say with certainty
There’s a reason
A light left on in an empty room
Is how a love can be
Is all a love can be
Is all a love can be
Is all a love can be
Some birds
Just sit
Useless
Like fists
I wrestle
On TV
But no one ever
Let’s me win
I lean
On the wall
Like a broom
Confused
By the scope
Of it all
Any fool
Can tell the truth
And though I don’t
Think that I should
Add one
To the sum
Of all that you fear
I’d love to take you down
And leave you there
In my window
I have a twin
I look out
He looks in
He has a point
I applaud
Oh my goodness
Oh my god
Is it my fault
The countrysides
Are so full
Of suicide?
I break bricks
With my heart
But only a fool
Would call it art.
No I don’t
Think I should
Be one
Of the sum
Of all that you fear
I’d love to take you down
And leave you there
So why fuss
Why not bend
Like a nail
Hammered in
Times are tough
If I recall
Oh it ain’t easy
No not at all
And no I don’t
Think I should
Complete
The sum
Of all the you fear
I’d love to take you down
And leave you there
My lonely said to me
Love won’t show
It’s a cold case
You’re never going to close
Oh I could never let it go
Oh I could never let it go
So I drank myself
Back into your life
And I cried
On the yellow telephone
Oh I could never let it go
Oh I could never let it go
Then I aimed my scope
Out a broken window
I could feel it in my bones
Oh I could never let it go
Oh I could never let you go
Please take my advice
Worry into your song
Grow away from your anger
Distance belongs
Oh I don’t believe in heaven
I keep some heat inside
Like a red brick in the summer
Warm when the sun has died
Oh tomatoes right off the vine
We used to eat them like that all the time
And if you think that’s the best thing
That I ever knew
Guess again
My love
It’s you
Riding with the wind blowing in my hair
And the sun shining down everywhere
If you think that’s the best thing
That I can do
Guess again
My love
Guess again
My love
It’s for you
Oh trouble
I can sing it the same
Or just about the same as any other song you can name
And if you think that
That’s the main thing
Pulling me through
Guess again
My love
It’s you
And if you think that’s the best thing
I’ll ever do
Guess again
It’s you
Maybe you noticed
How light I am
Maybe you’ve been thinking
I’m drinking again
Oh I’m high
But there’s really
Nothing new
Guess again
My love
Guess again
My love
It’s you
Guess again
My love
Guess again
My love
It’s you
If I may have your attention please
I’ll tell you about my wife and what she means to me
How fiercely she believes what she believes
I laugh and I cry
I live and I die
By her side
From time to time she puts her hand in mine
Holds me like a sharp shiny key
I was never one who needed to believe
In a god hard to find
But I found by her side
There’s a god
Even I can see
They say no work of art is ever done
Carved in bark or yet to come
Rivers run low and flow with only sky
Even gods have to die
But once in a while
There’s a god
Even I can see
official show poster by Austin Smoldt-Saenz